Hello to myself … and to all my loved ones who will read this if / when the time is right.
I’m typing this note in my Gmail account – not in a word document – so it is preserved and accessible to all who may want or need to know … on one of the Google servers in the “cloud computing” of the New Millenium. Since it “lives” as an email sent to myself … its lifespan transcends the machine on which it was created, as well as the person who typed the words. It will “forever” be accessible through the vast data banks in the sky.
THE IDEA I’m going to tell you about may be shocking to some – and sad – but it is divinely-inspired and actually feels exciting, congruent and purposeful to me.
THIS IDEA was “hatched” during a solitary walk at about 6 a.m. on Thursday, May 27, along Butterfly Beach here in Santa Barbara, where I often walk at night or in the early mornings. During the walk, I felt a very strong presence of the Ashtar Command (divinely guided beings who have been hovering above the Earth for several decades, lovingly guiding and directing activities on Earth to be in alignment with and fulfillment of the Divine Plan). The sky was full of heavy, gray clouds which the Ashtar Command often uses to cloak its spaceships so they won’t frighten humans with their presence.
OK, now the skeptics already think I’m crazy … and I’m not to the “crazy” part yet.
Thursday, May 27, was the start of a new cycle in the Mayan Long Count Calendar, which I have been working with on a daily basis since Dec. 31, 2009. Every day, I look up the meaning of the number and the image (star-glyph) for the day in the Mayan Oracle (Spilsbury & Bryner), and write what I’m Guided to put down as “Galactic Energies” for that day. It has been a very rich and rewarding experience … seeing the unique energies that come through for each day in the 260-day cycle. (13 numbers times 20 star-glyphs = 260 days compared to 365 in the commonly used Gregorian calendar).
Thursday, May 27, was especially important as the start of a new cycle in the Mayan Long Count Calendar.
For some time, I have been in a place of equanimity regarding my current life: Am I going to continue in this body and this lifetime on Earth? OR … is it time for me to transition to another reality / experience / method of service? I feel in a place of equanimity regarding this question because I truly know that we all are – at essence – consciousness which transcends the body. Our eternal SOULS have one experience after another, and this current life on Planet Earth is just the most recent “personality veneer” – like a suit of clothes, really – on the eternal expression of consciousness we humans commonly call soul.
I have thought for some time that I would like to make it to the “end” of the current cycle of the Mayan Long Count Calendar, which is popularly regarded as Dec. 12, 2012. But, my current finances will only take me through Oct. 2011 … and no other sources of income are readily apparent on the horizon.
I AM open to more abundance, support, opportunities and experiences on Earth.
I could teach seminars on key skills for successfully making the transition to 4D.
I could publish books, art, photos, cards, posters, etc.
I could do “traditional” writing or consulting … though that doesn’t feel right.
I could do any type of job or activity that FELT RIGHT.
I would ENJOY having a new intimate partner with whom I could share my life and soul’s journey.
I would LOVE to live in one or more homes that fulfill my wishes and dreams.
I would LOVE to travel, live, experience, share more … and continue to be of loving service to humanity, Earth and the Divine Plan.
I am open to those possibilities … BUT …
THE IDEA that came through to me on my morning walk on Thursday, May 27, 2010 …. was for the peaceful transition of my SOUL to a new reality toward the end of 2011.
It came to me very clearly that:
IF new sources of income, partnership and support have NOT come into my life by May 2011 …
THEN … when I reach my 60th birthday on July 2, 2011 … I am to make a journey across the U.S. and the world … ending at the South Pacific Island for which Sirius is the pole star … and take a “final exit” from this physical body and this human lifetime … walk into the warm water … breathe deep … let go …
I vividly see my body gently floating down into the ocean where it can peacefully be recycled as “fish food” … and my spirit floating up into the stars.
This will probably seem very strange to my human family (mother, sister, brother-in-law, nephews and others)
BUT … In no way is THIS IDEA a form of suicide … ending this human life out of a sense of despair, loneliness, etc.
It is the conscious choosing of a peaceful transition to whatever reality and experience is next.
Jill Mara in her book Keys to Soul Evolution channels information from a collective of seventh-dimensional beings that call themselves Simion. On pages 255-257, she talks about afterlife options including 3D worlds, 4D Earth, other planets, future worlds and ethereal realms. I don’t KNOW where my next “assignment” will take me … but every time I read that passage in her book, I felt an “energetic hit” on her description of future worlds (p.256) … so, my sense is, my next level of soul service will be in some future world. (Just so you know … no mouldering in the ground for me! 😉
I am absolutely certain that each one of us (whether we know it or not) … is spirit having a human experience. I am clear that I am a soul in service to fulfillment of the Divine Plan. That is my intention in this lifetime, and it is my intention for my soul in whatever form it takes next.
THE IDEA came to me on the morning of May 27, 2010, very clearly, with a tentative schedule for the last for months of this human lifetime. And – more importantly – the feelings and energy that I experienced about the idea were positive and enthusiastic, with a settled sense of RIGHTNESS about it all.
I AM open to new opportunities for continuing to live on Earth as long as I am in good health and have abundant resources for living.
BUT … I AM looking at the prospect of architecting my own soul’s transition … and JOYFULLY walking toward my own death … consciously savoring each moment and relationship and experience … and creating a transition that is beautiful, smooth, purposeful, creative, celebratory and adventurous … with maximum spiritual benefit for all.
I know that this can be one very great benefit of this idea = modeling a new approach to one’s own death.
Approaching it consciously … joyfully … intentionally … with a sense of completion about the current soul “assignment” … and eager anticipation of what lies ahead.
May 27, 2010 = Second Harmonic Convergence
When I got home from my walk on May 27, I sketched out the “transition” plan that had come through, right down to the tentative schedule of activities from May through October 2011.
Then, I took out two of my reference books on the Mayan Calendar, and started to research the significance of the 260-day cycle that was starting that very day. I was AMAZED to discover in Carl Johan Calleman’s book The Mayan Calendar and the Transformation of Consciousness that May 27, 2010 was considered by Calleman and other scholars as a “Second Harmonic Convergence.”
The first “Harmonic Convergence” (in August 1987) was celebrated by New Agers all over the world as a special opening and activation of celestial energies in support of our ongoing evolution. In his book, Calleman said (on p.145) that this Second Harmonic Convergence marked “the first experience of a galactic pulse of cosmic consciousness.”
The fact that the above IDEA would come through to me on this very day – amplified by incredibly powerful, enthusiastic, creative and supportive energies – was amazing to me! And – in my mind – it lent weight to the idea itself. To receive this idea on the exact day when humanity would have the first experience of “a galactic pulse of cosmic consciousness” was truly extraordinary and deeply significant to me.
October 28, 2011 = Completion of Creation
As I continued to re-read Calleman’s book, looking for information about this new “year” in the Mayan Calendar, I came across another amazing Revelation:
On Page 126, Calleman wrote: “Through fairly extensive research, which is outside the scope of this book, I have come to the conclusion that the correct date for the completion of creation is October 28, 2011, a day that has the energy 13 AHAU. This 13 AHAU, which is the last day of a tzolkin round (260-day cycle of the Mayan Calendar), is when the light will pass through all Underworlds without any obscuring filter of darkness blocking the contact between humankind and the Divine.”
The “end of the world,” which has commonly been regarded as Dec. 21, 2012 … is really the “completion of creation,” culminating on Oct. 28, 2011.
This is 14 months earlier than anticipated (October 2011 instead of December 2012).
This is the exact month through which I currently have resources to live.
This is the exact time frame in which – just hours before – Spirit had guided me to plan out my “final exit” from this human lifetime.
And it is to be viewed positively: not as an apocalyptic end, but as the “completion of creation.” I love that!
There is much more … so much more … but it will be continued at a later time.
Love to you all,
Last Will and Testament
I, JOY , a resident of Santa Barbara, CA, being of sound and disposing mind and memory, and desiring to make an orderly disposition of my affairs in the case of my death or disappearance, do hereby make, publish and declare this, and this only, to be my Last Will and Testament, hereby revoking any and all former wills and codicils heretofore made by me.
FIRST: I am unmarried and have no children or grandchildren.
SECOND: I give all my furniture, furnishings, and tangible personal effects, including clothing and jewelry, plus any automobile, plus the contents of any Mini-Storage, to my ex-husband NELSON knowing he will dispose of the same in accordance with any wishes I have expressed to him.
THIRD: I give all the rest, residue, and remainder of my property and estate, both real and personal and wheresoever situated, to provided she survives me; otherwise, to JILL
FOURTH: I nominate the persons listed below, in the order and priority indicated, as Executor and alternate or successor Executor of my Will, each to serve without bond:
I authorize my personal representative to sell or lease property of my estate subject to such order of Court as may be required by law.
I AM of sound mind and body, and I make this last will and testament in joyous anticipation of my transition to a new state of Being.
My Intention is this: If no new resources become available to continue independent living in a furnished apartment with a car (at a bare minimum), I will consciously choose to terminate my use of this body. Some would say end my life. That is NOT the way I see it. I have the firm belief and transcendent knowing that consciousness endures. I make these choices with sound mind and body intact, and with the firm faith, trust and conviction that I will continue to be of Service to Earth, Humanity and the ongoing evolution of all Creation, no matter what form (or lack of form) my consciousness may take after this lifetime (marked by the expiration of the body known as Joy Steltzner).
My preferred time of transition would be 11/11/11 (Nov. 11, 2011) or after.
My selected location – if no other attractive options for continuing life in this form have presented themselves by 11/11/11 – would be somewhere in the Fiji Islands. Why Fiji? Because Sirius is the pole star for this island nation, and Sirius is the guiding star for the current and future trajectory of my consciousness. This is where my greatest loyalty and allegiance lie, and the energy and affinities that are pulling me forward, onward and (quite literally! 😉 … upward.
I have the conscious intention that my body will simply be released into the warm embrace of the tropical ocean, and be recycled (literally) as fish food. I do NOT want a physical grave in the ground. I do NOT want pilgrimages made to a “bag of bones” and rotting flesh that once housed this resolute, resilient, amazing and enduring spirit. It is my desire to have my body literally melt with the waters of the largest ocean on Earth … releasing all that I am and know and can contribute to all who may benefit from whatever knowledge, wisdom, faith, love and joy I have gained, sustained and emanated during this brief, yet joyous and wondrous physical expression.
If my passing occurs in this way, be sure: It is NOT what is commonly referred to in our culture as “suicide.” It is a Conscious Transition … about which I have written much from August 2010 through June 2011. My life is not finished, because my consciousness does not end with the death of this body. I AM here (alive, awake, aware, responsive, interactive and co-creative) in energetic or incarnate form – forever – in Service of the Divine Plan, and the Evolution of Humanity, Earth and All Creation.
There is no need for any marker anywhere on the Earth to record my passing. Whatever positive ideas, inspirations and shifts I have been able to contribute to the global mind field of humanity, to planetary energies, global geographies and the celestial and subtle realms, I am happy for those good effects. It also has been my pleasure and privilege to assist my ORB friends and celestial brothers and sisters in their work here on Earth and – to whatever small degree – throughout the Cosmos. If there’s a desire by anyone anywhere to briefly summarize this particular lifetime, I would offer this as my own epitaph:
JOY … a life on the leading edge, dedicated to adventure, discovery, creation.
Her Spirit lives on … in Service to the Divine Plan, the Evolution of Humanity
and the Upliftment of Earth and All her Kingdoms.
This Will was signed by me on June ___, 2011, at Santa Barbara, California.
The foregoing instrument, consisting of three (3) pages, including this page signed by the witnesses, was on the date hereof by JOY signed and declared to be her Will, in the presence of us who, at her request and in her presence, and in the presence of each other, have observed the signing of this Will by JOY and by the other subscribing witness and know that each signature is the true signature of the person whose name was signed.
Each of us is, on the date hereof, more than eighteen (18) years of age and a competent witness and resides at the address set forth after his or her name.
We are acquainted with JOY . At this time she is over the age of eighteen (18) years, and to the best of our knowledge said JOY is of sound mind and is not acting under, nor was the execution of this Will procured by duress, menace, fraud, misrepresentation or undue influence.
We declare under penalty of perjury that the foregoing is true and correct.
Executed on June ___, 2011 at Santa Barbara, California.
DIRECTIONS TO CHERYL OR NELSON REGARDING DISPOSITION OF PERSONAL PROPERTY:
- To my sister, Jan , Wisconsin, I leave selected items of jewelry, my original “Divine Mother” painting, the red prayer rug I bought in Russia in 1972, and the items in “Javier’s Sarcophagus,” all of which I intend to deliver to her personally in July 2011.
- To my nephew Cameron , I leave my “World Tree” painting and the black bear fetish with turquoise heart line, which I intend to deliver to him personally in July 2011.
- To my nephew Harrison , I leave my “Star Dance” painting and eagle fetish from Zuni Pueblo, which I intend to deliver to him personally in July 2011.
FALLON, NEVADA, STORAGE UNIT = Unit #54, American Mini-Storage, P.O. Box 287, Fallon, NV 89406. The physical location of this storage unit is a 10 by 20-foot space located at 4455 Reno Highway, Fallon, NV, 89406. Contact is co-owner Steve at 775-423-6010 (American Car Wash, 100 N. Allen Road, Fallon). Numerical lock placed by ex-husband Nelson. Rental is $45/month.
- To my ex-husband Nelson, I bequeath all cash, securities and investments in my name as well as any rights to any pension or social security benefits … my car (2004 Toyota Matrix) … and all other furniture, furnishings and tangible personal effects. If Nelson should predecease me, I want all these assets to go to my nephews, Cameron and Harrison Cruz, to be divided equally between them or as they see fit.
- The paintings, photographs, journals and writings in the Fallon, Nevada, storage unit that were created before 2007 should all go to Nelson.
- All other intellectual property assets created since 2007 – including all forms and physical and electronic manifestations of all my original writing, artwork, visual journals, written journals and photographs – are to go to Cheryl. This includes the rights to turn these creations into any and all forms of profitable expression including – but not limited to – books, postcards, greeting cards, all types of calendars, journals, day minders, posters, fine art prints, seminars, TV shows, radio shows, webinars, workshops, courses of study, use in promotional and advertising materials, licensing agreements, etc. If Cheryl should predecease me, I want all these intellectual property assets to go to Jill. I have chosen Jill because of her loving service with the 7th dimension collective of Light Beings known as Simion 7D in support of the evolution of humanity and Earth. If Cheryl and/or Jill do not choose to exercise these rights, and if Nelson wants to, it is fine with me that those rights be assigned to him.
It is my intention that all of my assets be used in Service of the Fulfillment of the Divine Plan, the Evolution of Humanity and the upliftment of Planet Earth and All Her Kingdoms together as ONE.
These assets and intellectual property include, but are not limited to:
- All my online Picasa web albums (files associated with my Gmail account: email@example.com. I hereby authorize Google, its representatives and assigns to, upon my death, give access to all my emails and related online accounts to my named executor or her designated representative.
- Mayan Calendar divinations (full 260-day cycle Dec. 31, 2009 – Sept. 17, 2010)
- Draft of an orb book created in November 2010
- My writings on multidimensional intimacy including the PG-rated MDI Article and the uncensored long document entitled MDI Full.
- Channeled writings, many of which are labeled Insights YYYY-MM-DD (date such as 2010-09-09)
- Word documents
- Travel writings, especially those dating from Sept. 2007 (preparing for the three-month journey along the Continental Divide of North America, July-October 2008)
- Communications RE: Unity Consciousness, especially the Unity Consciousness Self-Assessment Survey
- Soul Star Seminar series I developed based on Jill Mara’s book, Keys to Soul Evolution
- Visual journals including 2008 three-month trip journal (hand-tooled leather cover) … 2008-2009 journal (Book of Kells cover) … divorce and nature visual journal (blue suede cover)
- Extensive set of digital photos taken by Hunter Howett-Nab at Samy’s Camera in Santa Barbara (four versions of all eight chakra paintings and related images) intended as basis for book and seminar on how to create your own chakra visual journal.
- All fiction, nonfiction, screenplays, seminars and other writings – published and unpublished – some of which is contained in filing cabinets in Fallon, Nevada.
- Intellectual property rights to all original art, and all original art itself except those pieces already given to Nelson, Cameron, Harrison, Cheryl and others by Joy.
The ORIGINAL of my Last Will and Testament is held for safekeeping at the Santa Barbara office of:
STEVEN C. VON DOLLEN
1114 State Street
Suite 256 La Arcada Building
Santa Barbara, CA 93101 TEL: 805-962-8131 email = firstname.lastname@example.org
Attorney Tom Griffith can be reached at:
- THOMAS GRIFFITH
PO Box 20002
Santa Barbara, CA 93120 TEL: 805-965-4323 email = email@example.com
June 8, 2011
Nelson Beneficiary (& 2nd Executor)
Atty. R. Thomas, Atty. Steven
RE: Farewell Letter to My Family
Attached is a copy of a letter I have prepared to send to my sister Jan, in the event that I have not been heard from via phone or email for more than a month. It should NOT, under any circumstances, be sent to her or circulated to anyone else before that time. Jan’s contact information is:
It is my strong desire that this be shared with my family, but I also leave that to the best judgment and highest integrity of the Executor of my Estate, considering all circumstances and conditions at the time the decision must be made.
In an email yesterday, Nelson expressed his reluctance to have to deal with questions from my family regarding my choices and decisions in this matter. I understand his feelings, and would offer this as an outline for a potential conversation with my family, which should mostly involve listening:
- You don’t understand, either
- You don’t have answers for them
- But you DO know that I was sincere, calm, peaceful and happy in all my writing, conversations and interacting on these issues
- You empathize with their feelings
- You know they love me
- You know they don’t understand
- You know it’s hard
- Just Listen and Love them … and undertake this support of them at a difficult time as an act of Selfless Service, a favor to me and a Kindness to them.
If this comes to pass, they will need understanding and support. That doesn’t require you to answer on my behalf or to explain things you don’t understand or agree with. But it can be useful simply to Bear Witness to their questions, their confusion, and their sense of loss, anger, hurt … whatever they may be feeling. And, I detach from the outcome. I leave the final decision totally up to each of you, to whatever Feels Right to you in that moment.
Again, many thanks to each of you for your Loving Service to me on my unconventional Journey.
I could … after all … be hanging around in this body for another 50 years or so. We just don’t know, do we? But I promise you, wherever Life takes me, I will do my best to Encounter the Adventures with Joy!
My mother’s contact information is:
She turned 91 in February 2011 and – as of this writing – is still living alone in her own home and is mentally alert, though there have been increasing signs of short-term memory loss over the past couple of years.
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